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She glanced back at him with a smile “Touching the rain” She said simply. The window creaked a bit with the wind outside and she all but jumped out of her skin because she automatically thought it was the beginning of thunder. She whipped to look back outside but when she realized it was just the window making the sound she relaxed and let her hand move back outside to touch the rain. She loved nature and rain was fine…as long as there was no thunder. None. Since it seemed to have stopped she had gained a little courage, but if it started again in two seconds shed be back under the blanket attached to Andre’s side and drinking wine. She leaned against him as he came to her and giggled when he kissed her neck.

When he asked about ice cream she frowned and was silent for about a minute. What if it thundered again and they were outside? She didn’t know if she wanted to risk that, but if it just kept raining then…that wouldn’t be so bad, but was it worth the risk? She leaned back against him “I suppose it would be alright” She said then grinned and glanced back at him “Want to see something?” She asked him eagerly then looked back to the open window and the rain. She stretched her hand out further and seemed to be concentrating….then all of the sudden the rain droplets began twining together in midair and creating a watery rope. She grinned and made it come into the house and sway around in the air like a snake. She looked to him and giggled “I’m learning better how to control my power”

After she actually started doing her little trick and seeing the expression on his face, she panicked. Why was she so stupid! He had never seen her use her power before and now he probably thought she was a freak! Everyone in her village had feared her, they thought she was dangerous, but here at the university she was always so encouraged to use her power and that it was a good thing, so she kind of got too excited and slipped showing her power so eagerly to him without thinking he might be freaked out. She quickly cupped her hands infront of her and made the snake of water came down into a ball in her hands, a fearful expression on her face.“I…can control water” She said shamefaced “And fire…and earth…and wind” Oh no…he was going to think she was a freak. She knew it.

But suddenly he was excited, he was enraptured by what she did and she found herself smiling brightly “You liked it?” Only her mother had ever be kind to her power, but even then she still felt she had feared it but Andre didn’t seem scared at all by what she did and he wanted to see more! “Um, well…” She turned and tossed the ball of water outside then moved away from the window and looked around the house. “Well, earth” She went over to one of the plants she had brought into the house and touched it, making one of the buds on it bloom. She looked back at him and smiled more “And fire” She searched around for a useless piece of paper and went over to stand infront of him. She held the paper between her fingers and then…suddenly it was on fire between them “And wind” She finished and a sudden soft gust of wind came from nowhere and snuffed the fire out. She shrugged shyly and glanced down “I’ve always been able to do these things but couldn’t control it. Now I can” She frowned “Does it frighten you?”

She nodded “All four elements. Apparently it’s very rare” She shrugged because she wasn’t sure, she just kept being told that. His expression when she did it all made her a little afraid but a little in wonder as well. No one had ever looked at her like that except Evelyn and her professors, and they had done it positively so…his reactions had to be positive as well right? Even though she was afraid what he might do to all of the things she had done she kept grinning at him hopefully and giggling a bit because he looked so flabbergasted. She put the burnt piece of paper down and laughed when he did, her heart beating so wildly after doing all of that infront of him.

“With my mind, I just…think it somehow and it happens. My hands just help control it, but my professor said soon I’ll be able to do it without using my hands at all” When he said he wasn’t afraid she searched his face for a moment and saw only honesty. She suddenly threw her arms around him happily and couldn’t help but to give him a big kiss. She was just, so happy! He accepted her powers, something no one ever had earnestly accepted, not even her own mother and she was just enamored with him for it. She touched his face and giggled warmly and gave him another kiss just because “You are a wonderful husband. You are the best husband” She told him brightly.

His question though made her pout some and she looked to the window for a moment before back to him and she slid her arms down to rest against his chest “I cannot control the storm, I am not that strong yet. I have far to go” She then sighed and looked sad “Thunder scares me because…-“ She swallowed hard and looked emotional “I had my first shift when I was thirteen, after I got my bleeding. My father was afraid of me, so he locked me outside in a shed…..there was a storm that night. I shifted alone and it was painful and awful and I was afraid and there was so much thunder and lightning and rain battering the shed…” She felt stupid sharing it, thinking maybe he’d believe it was silly “That’s why they scare me”

The unexpected turn in her husband surprised her, but didn’t make her uncomfortable in the slightest. She wondered what brought on this turn, since they had not been like this since a month ago. Maybe it was the fact they had shared things personal to each other, that they were learning to open up to one another better that led to the sudden passion …or maybe her husband suddenly just realized he was horny but, Adella liked the more romantic side of life. She squealed when he picked her up, giggling as she laid on the couch and eagerly pulled him down over her as he moved above her. Although still a little naturally shy with him, she was more than happy to make love to her husband that night.

It didn’t just storm that night, but the days following it. It would switch from light rain to heavy, with thunder and lightning gracing the sky on and off throughout the day and night. Because of it Adella had refused to go outdoors and to class, afraid to be caught outside if it started to thunder and so she had stayed indoors safely. She had let Andre leave her home alone for the first day…but when he came home she was hiding underneath the bed because of the thunder that had rumbled loudly in the sky for the past couple of hours, so after that she had pouted to him to stay home with her until it stopped storming, but it didn’t stop with the days coming up to the full moon. But it didn’t matter, because it seemed finally she and Andre had gotten into a new pattern. She wondered if it was normal with other couples to not have sex for a month, then wait another whole month to have sex again before doing it every day several times a day…but that’s what happened between them. Stuck indoors and the full moon looming close, it seemed she and Andre did nothing but make love all day long as the storm passed through slowly outside….and she wasn’t complaining.

The day of the full moon as the sun began to set, she found herself molded against his side as they lounged lazily in bed after another long day of…well, being in bed. She lay half on top of him, kissing his chest and connecting invisible dots on his stomach with a tired smile. She then glanced outside at the dimming sky “Hopefully the storm is gone” It had stopped raining that morning, though it had stayed cloudy all day but not another drop had fallen. She then looked up to him and grinned, slowly sitting up and straddling him, leaning down to kiss his lips “Are you tired?...I’m not tired” She asked softly, nuzzling his face. It had seemed that several days of sex with her hungry animal husband had turned Adella into quite the little temptress. She didn’t even realize that tonight was the full moon, and soon Andre along with herself would be forced to turn.

She was so caught up in the wonder of love making and her seemingly never tired husband that she had no idea what was coming tonight. She didn’t feel the pull of the moon like werewolves did, sure she got more energy and more anxious but she never really associated that because the full moon was coming closer. She assumed it would be another night of playfulness as they enjoyed their own little bubble, so when he rolled out of bed she watched him among the tangle of the sheets, stretching as she ran her hands through the mess of her hair “Where are you going”? She would assume to eat, her appetite lately had almost been as bad as his. She blinked and looked confused “Go where?” Well that was…sudden, they were going somewhere? She suddenly wished the storm wasn’t over.

She got out of bed and threw on a dress quickly before following him curiously downstairs ”Wait…wait, go where?”. She was starving, she hadn’t had so much activity her entire life, so she grabbed some bread and drank some water as she watched him. She could sense his anticipation and it made her anxious just to feel it. She had never see another werewolf before, ever. She had never run out in the woods or had anyone see her shift. It would be a whole new world for her and one she wasn’t sure she would be entirely ready for.

"Hunt?” She was still clueless, what was he talking about and what was he doing hiding the key under the mat? But then he mentioned shifting and the realization hit her “Shifting” She said the word with a hollow tone, frowning deeply. She moved over to the calendar and looked it over before turning back to him “It’s a full moon…” Well, that explained why he was behaving the way he was and his insatiable sexual hunger. Suddenly she wasn’t hungry anymore and she crossed her arms tightly over her chest and watched him eat. Her whole demeanor screamed that she was entirely happy that she was going to shift tonight. It had always been a horrible and lonely experience; she hated it deep down to her bones.

“I don’t think I’m hungry anymore…” She muttered with a sigh, looking down to the floor “Where do we go to be locked up?” That’s what she assumed all wolves had to do, go somewhere and get locked up or put in a pin or…something, certainly not to roam around freely. When he came to kiss her she smiled slightly, but it was a very bad attempt at it. She didn’t know why he was so excited over such a horrid thing “I don’t like shifting…I don’t like being a wolf” She pouted

Shifting was just full of terrible memories. Every time she had every shifted in her entire life she had been locked up in a shack, alone and in pain. That’s all she knew and that’s all she felt it could ever be. Shifting was something evil to her that was not to be enjoyed, it was to be dreaded and that’s exactly how she felt. Just as he was baffled how she couldn’t be excited she was just as baffled as how he could be looking forward to it. When he said he’d change her mind she smiled and touched his arm as they kissed but, she didn’t look at all convinced but she was trying to not be a total mope.

She frowned at his confusion “A cage” She told him as if what she was saying had to be obvious “To…hold us” She didn’t know the word contain yet in English but she was getting the gist of it out. She had come accustomed to his Cajun accent, she even found herself liking it and missing when she didn’t hear it in his voice as strongly. Her eyes widened in surprise “Roam free? Really? But isn’t that dangerous? We could hurt people” She had been told werewolves were dangerous in there shifted forms and if they roamed free they would kill. Of course, her step father had told her that. She smiled and giggle a bit when he grabbed her side but, it wasn’t her usual self, she was being far more reserved with her fear of shifting.

She leaned forward and bit into the pizza when he brought it up to her mouth then took it from him. She didn’t eat it very enthused but she slowly nibbled on it so he would be pleased. She ate about half of it then put it down, not able to stomach eating it anymore even though he told her she needed to eat. She then moved closer to him and put her arms around him, leaning into his chest and looked up at him as he ate “I’m scared” She whispered.

She pursed her lips “My father told me werewolves are dangerous…they kill. That’s why I was locked away” Of course her step father told her that, he had fed her many lies. That werewolves were bloodthirsty creatures that couldn’t control themselves on the full moon. That if they didn’t get locked up they’d kill anybody, even people they knew. She had always feared herself, even more then the she had feared being locked up. After time she appreciated being put in that shed every night because it meant she was keeping everyone safe in her village. She was shocked that they actually allowed wolves to roam free here.

She followed him outside hesitantly, like she was going to the gallows for her death. She looked up at the sky then back to him, pausing as he began to shift and moved back to give him enough birth. Watching him shift…she had felt it herself, but had never seen others shift and she had to admit it frightened her to see it unfolding before her eyes. She gasped and took another step back, feeling her legs begin to shake. She stared at him as if he was some beast that emerged from nowhere, afraid her father’s words were true, Andre would attack her. She glanced up at the sky nervously again then back to the wolf that was meant to be her husband. She couldn’t change till the full moon truly came, so she was fully vulnerable till then.

She tensed when he stepped towards her, not moving away because she was too afraid too. But when he simply nudged her she seemed surprised that he wasn’t ripping her apart. Very hesitantly she reached a hand out and touched the top of his head, brushing her fingertips through his fur and smile softly “…Andre?” She said his name hesitantly, wondering if it was really him a hundred percent inside the beast. She took in a deep breath then let it out, glancing at the sky before pulling her dress off over her head and stood there naked. She fidgeted, crossing her arms then closed her eyes as the full moon appeared and she felt the shift come over her. She grimaced as her body changed to her wolf form, and it did a good job of reflecting the human self. She was petite, her coat a mix of brindle; light tan and black with touches of white, her eyes the same pale gray as her human side. She tucked her head down submissively, her gaze going down to the floor and her ears falling back with her tail tucked in.

Her wolf could feel he was dominant and it was a natural reaction to become submissive and be wary of him. She was not one with her wolf like he was, they were more on opposing sides. Her wolf side didn’t know how to be a real wolf, it floundered while the human mind tried to function at odd ends with the animal counterpart. She didn’t know exactly what to expect, she had never been around another wolf, she didn’t know how these things worked. Would he be just like Andre as a human or behave totally different to her with them both being in wolf form? She hoped he was the same, she didn’t know if she could deal with him being aggressive and trying to overpower her.

When he grew playful she…blinked at him, her eyes large and round like an owl. What…was he doing? His actions didn’t register to her as playful, she just simply didn’t have a clue what he was doing. She just stayed crouched down like a frightened puppy, not moving a single inch from where she stood. When he nudged her she kept still, her eyes flicking to him then away, not wanting to look him in the eye for too long, she knew you weren’t supposed to do that with dominant wolves, she knew that much at least. When he licked her muzzle however she relaxed and slowly stood up, still ducking her head but she looked up at him and hesitantly licked his muzzle back, her tail beginning to swish back and forth gently. She heard the howls of some other wolves out in the forest and her ears quickly perked forward, glancing off curiously.

He didn’t seem scary or threatening…perhaps this truly was her husband in every aspect, just as he was when human. For a brief moment she realized how amusing this situation was. For when she had first been married to him she had perceived his human form to be frightening and intimidating, she had been meek around him and uncertain how to behave. Now that she was used to him as Andre the human, she was now starting all over again with Andre the wolf. But she had to tell herself that perhaps her step father had been wrong in what he had told her, and werewolves weren’t bloodthirsty and evil in their wolf forms. He had told her all werewolves whether in human form or not were aggressive and dominant and demanding, and Andre had been nothing like that. She still had so much left to learn.

Her head whipped back to him as he howled, at first a chill going through her at the sound of it with him standing so close…but after a few moments she realized how beautiful it sounded in her ears. She watched him intently, just as awestruck as it seemed the other wolves in the distance were by his melody. Soon the others began to howl in return and she glanced briefly over into the woods before back to Andre, stepping a few inches closer to him. She didn’t know if she could handle other wolves other than him, and wondered if he was accustomed to running out there with them all. When he began heading into the woods she hesitated for a brief moment before following him. She had never really walked in her wolf form, she had always just been locked up and laid around, and it could be seen by her choppy movements as she followed her husband.

She did her best to keep up with Andre and she did alright, but it was hard. Not only had she been locked away her entire life in Wolf form, she was only half werewolf and would never a hundred percent be one with her Wolf like a full werewolf would. But she did really want to try no matter how scared shitless she was to be doing this. Walking around out here in the open with other wolves nearby…it was a bit overwhelming. She had been miserable inside her little shack but now she longed for it like the comfort of a blanket. She had been kept safe from others and they safe from her, she didn’t have to worry about senses or movement or anything else other than sleeping until the full moon went away.

She followed close behind him, stopping when he did and sniffing the ground, just mirroring everything he did to try and learn how it was to be a Wolf. She could smell things but didn’t know who or what the scents belonged too. At the stream she stopped at the edge of it and simply watched him, too afraid to enter. She loved to swim but she could barely walk straight without tripping, she was afraid if she attempted to swim she would only drown. She let her head swivel and her ears flick as she listened to the soft sounds around them; the crickets, leaves falling from trees, animals scampering in the undergrowth. She was so engrossed in listening to her surroundings she jumped and yelped when Andre jumped at her and made noise. She sat down and cowered so fast, looking at him in alarm for a moment until she realized he hadn’t meant her harm.

She watched him oddly as he tried to play, not understanding what he wanted her to do. She stood back up and let him nip and paw at her, her head tilted to the side. Was she…supposed to do these things too? Why? What was the purpose of these movements? She figured she would have to try it out and see. She hesitantly pawed him back, her tail swaying back and forth and she nipped at him back but ever so gently in case she angered him for doing it. She was trying to be…well, whatever he was wanting and trying to get out of her, she still wasn’t sure.